MYREALSITE

 Well, I am ready to go work somewhere else. I am making better money right now this week, but I just like change. I am starting to use my other website more it seems, but I don't want to write anything on that one that isn't about Ryan because it is especially for him. I think that I am about to get another one...one that I can write my true feelings on. My parents found out about this one a while ago, and they kind of control what I write on here. So I am going to make a new one. I am. I have decided. I am going to save the posts I like on here, and get rid of it. I guess I will put a link to it on my other site. I can't put one on here because of my parents. Well, so long folks, it's been nice, but I need change. Here is my email

sincereworshiper@msn.com

So come visit my new one. Until then, buh bye.

Karissa

So, I don't like Shoney's anymore. I KNOW that I am a darn good waitress, but I swear, if I get stiffed one more freggin time I am going to BLOW! All of these families with messy kids come in there, and then I have to wait on them and clean their messes for FREE. It sucks. Bad. I might get some more hours at Lifeway again, so then I will quit at Shoney's if I get enough time at Lifeway. I hope I will. I love working at bookstores. I love books, and I love writing. I can't wait until tomorrow. I am going to decorate the hotel so good! Ryan and I are staying at the Garden Plaza for two nights. I am excited.
I really like having all of this free time. I don't know if I will be able to write as much once I get into college. It seems that people actually write less in the summer, but it is the opposite for me.
My phone bill was two-hundered dollars. Did I say that already? Well, it sucked. And especially with the money I am making. After that, my speeding ticket I pay in August, the parking tickets, and Ryan's massive birthday expenses, I am going to have zero money. Zero. Donations are welcome.
Well, I leave you with a song that I love...and of course it is Evanescence.......

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
If I will it all away...

Don't turn away
(Don't give into the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know that there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
If I will it all away...

Don't turn away
(Don't give into the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end

Don't turn away
(Don't give into the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)...

-Whisper (Fallen)

I saw Evanescence on Jay Leno last night, and they performed. It was pretty good. The only thing is, they were playing with the track because she can't harmonize with her ownself like she does on the CD. This is why I wish I could be her back up singer because it would sound like her singing. But there is no way to reach them and even offer that, and they would probably laugh in my face...but I know I could do it. I am not trying to be conceded, I just know myself. I have been in bands for a few years, and everyone tells me I sing just like Amy Lee. I wish I could get in contact with them, but oh well. It is just a dream.
I don't know if I like this new skin on my site, but I am getting restless with everything lately. I want to change my room around everyday, and I want a new look and new everything every day. It is ridiculous. I want to move.
I absolutely cannot wait for Ryan's birthday. It is this weekend, and I have mega plans. Yeehaw.
Well, I suppose I will leave you with a song I wrote for Maddy aka www.xanga.com/maddylynne .

                                   Madeline

You reach out to help the needy, but who reaches out to help you?
You reject all help just so you can do for others what you want to
Good intentions drive your soul to be unconcerned with yourself
But beautiful girl, you can't always be the one to help...

Madeline, you're precious to me
Madeline, you don't have to hide your main behind the smiles
You want to show the world you're here to save them, but
What good is a hero with tears in their eyes
Madeline, even the strong cry sometimes...

So passionate and loving, your big blue eyes and perfect smile
Welcome all God's pitiful creatures to lay their burdens down for a while
On your shoulders, and never once do you complain of the pain
From healing the world's wounds while you have so many open...

Madeline, you're precious to me
Madeline, you don't have to hide your main behind the smiles
You want to show the world you're here to save them, but
What good is a hero with tears in their eyes
Madeline, even the strong cry sometimes...

You've grown up too fast because you had to
But now I beg you
Take the time to be a little girl
Before you're consumed by this world...

Madeline, you're precious to me
Madeline, you don't have to hide your main behind the smiles
You want to show the world you're here to save them, but
What good is a hero with tears in their eyes
Madeline, even the strong cry sometimes...


>>Anyone have ANY idea how to record something onto your computer and play it on the background of the site?<<<<<<

Oh say can you see
By the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed
At the twilight's last gleaming
Whose broad stripes and bright stars
Through the perilous fight
Ore the ramparts we watch
Were so galantly streaming

And the rockets' red glare
The bombs bursting in air
Gave proof through the night
That our flag was still there
Oh say does that star spangled
Banner yet wave
Ore the land of the free
And the home of the brave!

Let's be thankful that we don't live in slavery. Let us pray for those who don't know what freedom is at all. Though we are restricted here, let us be grateful that we can wear what we want and celebrate what we want and we whenever we want to. On this day, try and be thankful for at least one thing this country has done for you. Ask yourself what you can do for your country in return. Let's make America a better place.




                                   :*Karissa*:

Candyland...I remember longing to live there, to dissapear within the walls of King Candy's castle and never come out. Now that I look back on those foolish childhood desires, I wonder if the world of Candyland could be a solution to our problems today. I mean, look at the picture on the box: Happy people inviting you in. A deception? Or a hidden truth? Let's find out:


Awww, look at those two? Brother and sister? Lovers? Cousins? Cousins and lovers? Who knows, but they look awfully happy. Even though they are both competing to complete the board first, they are still friendly. You know the saying, "Keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer?" Well, these two sure know that first hand. Should we follow their example and befriend our competitors?














Now wouldn't that be nice?
A map to our entire world- to our goals. It tell you where the "bridged" short-cuts are and where not to get stuck in marshy swamps. But even though the people in the game can see it, they can't hardly avoid it. It is all up to the luck of the draw, and a lot of times that is what our life comes down to. They are destined to the color they draw, and so are we.


And King Candy's castle...The final goal achieved! Whoever wins gets to stay in the house made of ice cream and waffle cones. Think how grand it would be if you got grounded! You could eat your way out! But don't you think it would get kind of cold after a while? After all, most places do. Anywhere that has goodness had bad, too, because otherwise there would be neither. One can't survive without the other. So maybe the homes we live in aren't so bad anyhow, and maybe they are. Whose to say? I mean, we can't exactly go find out? But remember, things are not always as good as they seem.


So what do all of you think? Think I am nuts? All of this makes me pretty darn happy for what I have. And though our dreams are nice places to think about escaping to, I wouldn't actually want to live there. Live in the here and now. It is all we have so make the hest of it.


Plumpy, you are the coolest emotional kid I know. You are a second to Ryan in the crying area, but probably first in Maddy's book. Boy, we sure love them cryin boys. But honestly, I am so happy for you. The smile on this little green guy's face is the smile I hope to continue seeing on you. You can do anything you set your mind to... jut don't break the Lollypop girl's heart.


Princess Lolly, you are just cool. You are happy and fun on the outside, but inside you are full of emotion and compassion. You decorate yourself to attract attention with your "loud" personality, but you are just as sweet as can be. You are different and stand out just like Princess, and that is what you are. A beautiful princess. Keep Plumpy in line and make some weird lookin babies!






Go play Candyland, everyone! Bring back those wonderful and innocent childhood memories! Nickname your friends! Enjoy your life!

****>Karissa<****